Cologne

Stephie's Oma likes blueberry pies

Max

I'm not sure why I can not quite find the words to speak about you. Just so many things I cannot verbalise, everything so conflicting. You made ​​me realize life can be simple even when yours is so tough, and that everything is just all the mind. You were not outrightly the strongest fighter but I see tenacity in your life. Maybe not that you choose to be, but life chose it for you. Life has been difficult for you in every way, but then again what can be so tough that life just stops. We go on, everyone moves along and we can only take things in our stride, look at what we believe in and carry on. I pray the best for you and that you may continue to survive doing what you love. I hope did you meet more people that love and accept you the way you are. I hope that they see your sincerity in life and the big heart you have. Although I do not know if I'll ever see you again but your life has taught me much about how I should look mine. And I'll always remember with did you 

"Viv it would be nice if you had pictures of me in your book, then if I die at least someone remembers me and know that I exist. I have no family, but it'll be nice to be remembered"

That indeed was the hardest to watch him say

Over

Just how am I supposed to feel, I'm not quite sure

Jone

Did my first ever shot with a large format 5x7 camera that is about 70 years old. My teacher has been really nice to so generously let me use all of his tools. I've been really blessed to meet the right professor because I'm currently the only fine art photography student in the school and he's glad that he gets to teach one this sem. So it's really cool cause he says it'll be a photography collaboration between us but more so I steer and he backs me up. To be honest I didn't expect to come here and find myself a professor that wants to mentor me and with that I'm really really thankful. It makes me feel supported and also have someone that I can discuss my thoughts with. So right now while I'm fiddling with all the other larger format cameras like the 8x10 inch tomorrow (I can't wait it's so nerve wrecking) I'm also planning for my main project that I'm hoping to complete before I return. I'm not too sure how the outcome will be but this is probably the first project I'm letting lose this much. I've got to learn to not always be in control of the things I create and sometimes just loosen the reigns I hold. I'm so nervous but it'll be an exciting one. 

And that's lovely Jone helping and also witnessing my first shot ever. These are with my Iphone as I've yet to develop my film, and the phone resolution is just crazyyyy I'm amazed. 

I'm happy, really

You gain some, you lose some

But ultimately, you can always choose to be happy

It's all about your perspective, your choice

Helen

Barensee Stuttgart

Hello from Germany:> I've not been blogging cause things has been pretty busy here and it's been almost 1.5 months but I'm still trying to settle down. I've been good, met really nice people to help me get comfortable quicker and also school has been pretty exciting. German's school semester starts a lot later so I'm actually on my second week of school. Prior to this I had a month of intensive German lessons which I felt was a good period to help me move into Germany better. People here do speak English! But German is their preferred language, plus it's quite fun learning a new language haha I don't actually remember myself learning English and Chinese that consciously. But trust me 1 month is no where near enough in mastering the language so... don't expect me to be fluent ahahah but I try ;) Ich liebe Singapur <3 

So that's Sophie my buddy from school and I'm really thankful we got paired up together hahaha. She picked me up and brought me to my dorm and stuff like that. So basically she's been bringing me around and making a 'Vivien list' cause she knows I love nature and walking around. It's really nice especially the black forest road trip she planned for me, but sadly I didn't get to have the cake. I'M DEFINITELY GOING BACK. It's so beautiful :') I can finally step into grass and not care if there are creepy crawlies. I can sit on any grass or rock that I want. I don't get itchy neither do I perspire. But this weather isn't going to last for long and apparently the Germans have been telling me that this is the warmest Autumn they ever had so I'm really lucky. I'll try my best to update more often although I'm not sure who still reads this, but I'll try. Oh and also, Helen and I are in the same place :') Can't believe our plans to be in Stuttgart together actually came true haha. I'm not sure if you guys remember Helen but she was an exchange student in Singapore who I met as a stranger, and photographed, and became extremely good friends that we met at least once every week. AND NOW WE'RE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN. Haha couldn't be happier. I'll try to upload my randomly backlogged pictures but I haven't been taking much cause I rather just experience what I see sometimes. But if I would be most active on Instagram (although I get lazy) so haha @vivtanshithui if you want to see Stuttgart more.